The real Christ life is and always will be hateful to the world. I have
often heard it said of me; "I cannot bear that Carry Nation!" I would
only to do the people good. I do not blame these as I once did; "For
the natural man is not subject to the law of God, neither indeed can be."
"Marvel not that the world hate you, ye know that it hated me before it
hated you." I know that when I was ten years old I felt the movings of
God's spirit--got an answer of peace, but like a little infant pined away,
for lack of care and nourishment. Nothing but the divine mercy of
Almighty God could have directed the affairs of my tempest-tossed life.
I now know there are no accidents. A sparrow falls by a special providence.
There are no sins or temptations that I can not say: "My God
delivered, saved and forgave me for that." I go to prisons and all kinds
of houses of sin. I say: "I can tell you of one who can save and forgive
you for that, he forgave me, and he will forgive you, for I was as
bad, or worse, than you." I have never seen anyone whom I thought had
committed more sin than I. Many will lift up horrified hands at this
but 'tis true. I never saw the corruption of but one life, one heart,--that
was mine. I was never so shocked, so disgusted, so distracted with
remorse over any life, so much as my own. My heart was the foulest
place I ever saw. I do not know what is in other people's hearts.
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